Struggling

I’m struggling.

It’s cold. Very, very cold.

Covid is still happening.

I’m a mother.

All three of these factor into my every day life. Because it’s too cold out I can’t take the baby on a walk. Because of covid, I do not feel safe bringing the baby with me to public spaces like a mall to walk around. Because of the cold, it’s not possible to meet up with other moms outside or inside because of covid.

I miss my friends and family as we stay safe and because people have covid. I miss my mom friends and chatting about what is going on with our babies and if it is normal. I miss having time to myself, a goal that can actually be achieved because there is time to do it, and working to make an income.

I guess I miss myself.

I know the weather will get warmer and covid will ebb and flow as the weather gets warmer and go away someday and then I can see friends and family is a safe way but right now, I’m struggling. I’m struggling to see the end of this season and these emotions.

If you are struggling, you are not alone. I’m here too. I’m guessing there might be a few of us here.

Writing this down and speaking it into the internet helps a bit.

So I guess I’m struggling a little less. ❤️